that point in your life when you wake up and look in the mirror and all you see are the cracks . you see the redness and swelling around your eyes . you see the thin threads holding you together . and you think ... who would ever want me ? im not special . im not 'wonderful' . why do i even try ?
i feel that if ever someone decided to chose me , i'd only disappoint them . because im nothing but an empty skeleton of a human being . im simply....
That used to be me ... Today it makes me think of the shards of an antique vase: Broken, but still beautiful. And with some time and patience they can be put together again. The glue will show, the scars will be there, but it will be one and whole. You try because something somewhere deep inside knows that, even if it's hard to believe while you're in pieces.
Sorry for the rambling, but your writing is thought-inspiring and I thought I'd share.
oh, I'm sorry ... hang in there! I hope things get better for you.
So cool that you play more than one instrument! (What else do you play besides harp? Not that I'm curious or anything ) I think my problem with my harp is that it's a little too small for nice accompaniments. I always wish it had just one more bass string ... so I keep going back to the piano, even though I find the harp easier to play.
This is so depressing... :'''''''( BTW, don't think you're broken. Think of all the good things you have... like a deviantart account You are NOT broken. You are wonderful and great in your own special way.
I've been there - many times. Yet sometimes one always manages to pick up the pieces. Whether it be through friends who somehow help us see, just for that moment, that the mirror lies because they want you. Or just that random comment from a stranger on the colour of your eyes/the shape of your nose/the nice smile you have.
I can't believe you uttered words like that, not wonderful? not special? your the most special and kind person i know I'd choose you any day any time your really sweet and kind and i haven't known you that long but you seem to be the kindest person around xD dont feel bad or sad, i know how you feel and i know that saying that doesn't really help so how about, I know your important and i couldn't care less about what you've done or any of that, its about now what you make of this moment here and now that's what counts. so even if you feel broken, somebody will always come and piece you back together, sometimes you've just gotta wait on that perfect moment and you'll realize your coming back together, dont be sad *hugs* c:
I know that feeling. I've just gotten through one of many times where the girl in my mirror looks nothing like who i want to be. And the first time i saw that...well, let's say I'm lucky for my friends. I owe my life to them.
As creepy as this will sound *and it isn't meant to, i promise* I would want you. That sounds awkward, but the truth is awkward sometimes. *and there's a boy who has my heart at the present* Because you're the sweetest person i know, and anyone would be lucky to have you. And anyone who doesn't think that doesn't know what they're missing. And anyone who chooses you *trust me, you're to nice to be forever alone*will love you just the way you are because they'll get how special and perfect you are right now.
*hug* You are the most special and wonderful person I know. Promise.
nightembersglowingFeatured By OwnerJun 6, 2013Hobbyist Writer
I've looked in the mirror before and not recognised the person standing in front of me at all. It's like I had even less connection to them than to a random person on the street.
Leo, I would want you. This sounds like a confession and it's not supposed to be (no offence, honey, but I have this other person who kind of ran off with my heart and doesn't know >_<), but honestly, if I lived near you, I would do anything to make you feel less broken. I'd help you tighten the threads that hold you together because I don't want anyone to feel broken, much less a bubbly, funny, unbelievably kind-hearted person like you.
You have never, ever disappointed me and I don't think you ever will. I seriously need to get my ass across to some cons with you guys because I want to hug you and help to heal your cracks because I love you in the most sincere friend-over-internet way. Please. You are special because you care, and that's a rare thing in people nowadays. And goddammit, you are wonderful! Jeez, there isn't anyone else whose poetry and journals I stalk with such intensity! ^^ Honestly, Leo...I would fix you if I could and I want to and if I can, I will. Please. Keep fighting <3
I cant think of anything to say besides.. Wow. After I read the story, and the descridtion I started to cry.. I know this feeling and deal with it almost every day.. I hope everything gets better for you, great job. This is really deep
WOW thats soo simple but sums up everything that I have felt ... Thats amazing . Your awesome and I hope you never feel like that and no one has ever seen you with those eyes because Your amazing just the way you are. Im not good with words and I can attempt to express how amazing you are but I will fail miserably.