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Silence .

    That's what you hear , when you press your face to my chest .
Empty .

    That's what you feel , when you hold me close .
Forgotten .

    That's what you see , when you look in my eyes .
Broken .
    That's what you notice , when you find me all alone .
I am simply ...

    ...broken .
that point in your life when you wake up and look in the mirror and all you see are the cracks . you see the redness and swelling around your eyes . you see the thin threads holding you together . and you think ... who would ever want me ?
im not special . im not 'wonderful' .
why do i even try ?

i feel that if ever someone decided to chose me , i'd only disappoint them . because im nothing but an empty skeleton of a human being . im simply....

...broken .
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Leonardogirl4eve Featured By Owner Apr 15, 2014
Wow.
So amazing
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momoko-rose Featured By Owner Jun 27, 2013  Student General Artist
This is absolutely beautiful.
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Xanatos-Leo Featured By Owner Jul 9, 2013  Hobbyist General Artist
thank you.... it means a lot , really ..
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Jany1982 Featured By Owner Jun 12, 2013
That used to be me ...
Today it makes me think of the shards of an antique vase: Broken, but still beautiful. And with some time and patience they can be put together again. The glue will show, the scars will be there, but it will be one and whole. You try because something somewhere deep inside knows that, even if it's hard to believe while you're in pieces.

Sorry for the rambling, but your writing is thought-inspiring and I thought I'd share.
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Xanatos-Leo Featured By Owner Jun 21, 2013  Hobbyist General Artist
nono no thank you for rambling ^^ it gives me something to read...
and sorry for the late response... i haven't really been well /:

but i appreciate you commenting...it means a lot to me, really.


...mmm, i see you have a harp as your avatar , do you play ?
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Jany1982 Featured By Owner Jun 21, 2013
A little. Shamefully little, actually ... I really should practise more, but somehow poor Caillean always gets pushed back. (yeah, my instruments have names :D I'm crazy ;))
Are you into music?

Sorry to hear you haven't been well, I hope you're better now!
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Xanatos-Leo Featured By Owner Jun 21, 2013  Hobbyist General Artist
mmm *nods* yes i love music ^^ i play a few instruments...harp being one ~
but i know what you mean, the things massive and sits in my room and i almost never play it .

heh, no i am still not well... i just came home from a few funerals .. /:-
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Jany1982 Featured By Owner Jun 21, 2013
oh, I'm sorry ... hang in there! I hope things get better for you.

So cool that you play more than one instrument! (What else do you play besides harp? Not that I'm curious or anything ;) )
I think my problem with my harp is that it's a little too small for nice accompaniments. I always wish it had just one more bass string ... so I keep going back to the piano, even though I find the harp easier to play.
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XomegaXX Featured By Owner Jun 12, 2013  Hobbyist Writer
Hi.
I know where this poem came from.
I know what you look at in the morning.
I see the same thing.
Are you still there?
I'm still here.
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Xanatos-Leo Featured By Owner Jun 18, 2013  Hobbyist General Artist
hi , and yea im still here .
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XomegaXX Featured By Owner Jul 3, 2013  Hobbyist Writer
Good.
GOod.
Tomorrow always comes.
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Xanatos-Leo Featured By Owner Jul 9, 2013  Hobbyist General Artist
yea... it does
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XxFallenAngelxZ Featured By Owner Jun 10, 2013
I love it!
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Xanatos-Leo Featured By Owner Jun 18, 2013  Hobbyist General Artist
thank you , i really appreciate it <3
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1-Jeffie-3 Featured By Owner Jun 10, 2013  Student
in other words, Me.
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Xanatos-Leo Featured By Owner Jun 18, 2013  Hobbyist General Artist
no sweetheart , it's not you . You have so much worth and meaning . don't ever degrade yourself like this or think yourself this low . you're worth so much more
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1-Jeffie-3 Featured By Owner Jun 18, 2013  Student
:)
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Xanatos-Leo Featured By Owner Jun 18, 2013  Hobbyist General Artist
*hugs*
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1-Jeffie-3 Featured By Owner Jun 18, 2013  Student
:hug:
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QuiGonJin Featured By Owner Jun 9, 2013
Very nicely written. Very powerful words. Yeah I know what you mean. It's how I've felt. You described it in such good visual terms. Better than I could do.
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Xanatos-Leo Featured By Owner Jun 21, 2013  Hobbyist General Artist
mmm i am sorry you have ever felt that way /: *hugs* i feel awful all the time, but some days i just can't take it .

i hope you never feel that way again
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QuiGonJin Featured By Owner Jun 22, 2013
Thanks. With me feeling like that is a bit normal to some degree or another. I hope you can find some happiness and good feeling soon. It's not fun to feel awful all the time.
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Space-Core123 Featured By Owner Jun 9, 2013  Hobbyist Writer
This is so depressing... :'''''''( BTW, don't think you're broken. Think of all the good things you have... like a deviantart account :) You are NOT broken. You are wonderful and great in your own special way. :)
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Xanatos-Leo Featured By Owner Jun 18, 2013  Hobbyist General Artist
awww thank you sweetheart, it means a lot to me, really <3
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Space-Core123 Featured By Owner Jun 22, 2013  Hobbyist Writer
:)
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MagicalJoey Featured By Owner Jun 7, 2013   Writer
I've been there - many times. Yet sometimes one always manages to pick up the pieces. Whether it be through friends who somehow help us see, just for that moment, that the mirror lies because they want you.
Or just that random comment from a stranger on the colour of your eyes/the shape of your nose/the nice smile you have.

:hug:
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Xanatos-Leo Featured By Owner Jul 9, 2013  Hobbyist General Artist
thank you , it means a lot really *hugs*
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MagicalJoey Featured By Owner Jul 9, 2013   Writer
:hug:
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Xanatos-Leo Featured By Owner Jul 28, 2013  Hobbyist General Artist
*hugs*
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england3 Featured By Owner Jun 7, 2013  Hobbyist Writer
U r the bestest friend on the internet i ever had! You gave me courage for me reading in class. And i can not wait for it. So don't call urself special
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Xanatos-Leo Featured By Owner Jul 9, 2013  Hobbyist General Artist
thank you
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england3 Featured By Owner Jul 10, 2013  Hobbyist Writer
welcomes
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petitelilyrose Featured By Owner Jun 6, 2013
everyone is special even those like us who don't feel that way just takes a moment to notice when someone else smiles right you
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Xanatos-Leo Featured By Owner Jun 21, 2013  Hobbyist General Artist
thank you , you are very nice <3
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SurrealNacre Featured By Owner Jun 6, 2013  Hobbyist General Artist
I can't believe you uttered words like that, not wonderful? not special? your the most special and kind person i know :) I'd choose you any day any time your really sweet and kind and i haven't known you that long but you seem to be the kindest person around xD dont feel bad or sad, i know how you feel and i know that saying that doesn't really help so how about, I know your important and i couldn't care less about what you've done or any of that, its about now what you make of this moment here and now that's what counts. so even if you feel broken, somebody will always come and piece you back together, sometimes you've just gotta wait on that perfect moment and you'll realize your coming back together, dont be sad :) *hugs* c:
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Fall-Like-Angels Featured By Owner Jun 6, 2013  Hobbyist General Artist
I know that feeling. I've just gotten through one of many times where the girl in my mirror looks nothing like who i want to be. And the first time i saw that...well, let's say I'm lucky for my friends. I owe my life to them.

As creepy as this will sound *and it isn't meant to, i promise* I would want you. That sounds awkward, but the truth is awkward sometimes. *and there's a boy who has my heart at the present* Because you're the sweetest person i know, and anyone would be lucky to have you. And anyone who doesn't think that doesn't know what they're missing. And anyone who chooses you *trust me, you're to nice to be forever alone*will love you just the way you are because they'll get how special and perfect you are right now.

*hug* You are the most special and wonderful person I know. Promise.
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0L50NJ4 Featured By Owner Jun 6, 2013  Hobbyist General Artist
This is so excellent and the picture too. :) :thumbsup: :thumbsup: :)
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Xanatos-Leo Featured By Owner Jun 18, 2013  Hobbyist General Artist
thank you ...
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0L50NJ4 Featured By Owner Jun 19, 2013  Hobbyist General Artist
:) :hug: :love: :hug: :)
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blackshadowthewolf Featured By Owner Jun 6, 2013  Student Filmographer
Amazing my friend X3
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Xanatos-Leo Featured By Owner Jun 18, 2013  Hobbyist General Artist
thanks...
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blackshadowthewolf Featured By Owner Jun 18, 2013  Student Filmographer
Hehe how are you ? :3
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nightembersglowing Featured By Owner Jun 6, 2013  Hobbyist Writer
I've looked in the mirror before and not recognised the person standing in front of me at all. It's like I had even less connection to them than to a random person on the street.

Leo, I would want you. This sounds like a confession and it's not supposed to be (no offence, honey, but I have this other person who kind of ran off with my heart and doesn't know >_<), but honestly, if I lived near you, I would do anything to make you feel less broken. I'd help you tighten the threads that hold you together because I don't want anyone to feel broken, much less a bubbly, funny, unbelievably kind-hearted person like you.

You have never, ever disappointed me and I don't think you ever will. I seriously need to get my ass across to some cons with you guys because I want to hug you and help to heal your cracks because I love you in the most sincere friend-over-internet way. Please. You are special because you care, and that's a rare thing in people nowadays. And goddammit, you are wonderful! Jeez, there isn't anyone else whose poetry and journals I stalk with such intensity! ^^ Honestly, Leo...I would fix you if I could and I want to and if I can, I will. Please. Keep fighting <3
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thelonelywolf678 Featured By Owner Jun 6, 2013  Student Writer
I cant think of anything to say besides.. Wow. After I read the story, and the descridtion I started to cry.. I know this feeling and deal with it almost every day.. I hope everything gets better for you, great job. This is really deep
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Xanatos-Leo Featured By Owner Jun 21, 2013  Hobbyist General Artist
i am sorry i made you cry ...
and i am also sorry you have dealt with this also...it is not fun and it can hurt an awful awful lot /: *hugs*

i hope you never feel this way again *nods*
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thelonelywolf678 Featured By Owner Jun 22, 2013  Student Writer
Hey, don't be sorry.. It just means that your writing really touched me
Yes, I know.. It was one of worst feelings ive ever had

I hope the same for you too, thanks :) *hugs*
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zebragirl199 Featured By Owner Jun 6, 2013  Hobbyist Writer
I say this all the time but. Omg you're such a good writer!!!
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Xanatos-Leo Featured By Owner Jun 18, 2013  Hobbyist General Artist
thanks...
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zebragirl199 Featured By Owner Jun 18, 2013  Hobbyist Writer
You're welcome <333333
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LadyElentari Featured By Owner Jun 6, 2013
WOW thats soo simple but sums up everything that I have felt ... Thats amazing :iconkittyglompplz: . Your awesome and I hope you never feel like that and no one has ever seen you with those eyes because Your amazing just the way you are. Im not good with words and I can attempt to express how amazing you are but I will fail miserably.
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